I fucked it up

I can’t believe I missed the opportunity and now I am back where I was 3 years ago, except its worse. She is there. And she is so lovely, how can I be mad at her? But when your arms wrap around her my heart breaks a little. I miss that. 

I realised I fucked it up when you said I have the prettiest eyes, and that you always loved that about me. I realised you were everything I could have wanted and more. I am so silly, stupid, stupid girl.

I wish I could take it all back. I wish you and I had better timing. I hope this is all part of the universe’s plan. If its not, I just want you to be happy.


Claude Monet (French, 1840–1926) - Morning On The Seine, near Giverny (1897)
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” -Oscar Wilde